Smash365: Dreams

If you are going to create anyway, if you cannot avoid dreaming, then why not create a beautiful dream? Why not dream well and really enjoy your dream? If you can believe in your limitations, then why not believe in the beauty and power of life that’s flowing through you? – Don Miguel Ruiz, The Fifth Agreement

What is a limitation you believe you have? What would happen if you believed the opposite? - Smash365

That quote is pretty much a good explanation OF my limitations. I tend to spend so much time dreaming that sometimes I lose sight of what exactly I do want to bring to reality.

I have a hard time figuring out how to create my dreams. And working past what my disabilities are. Living with severe anxiety and depression has made it very hard to figure out what my talents are when I lose steam with them.

I imagine if I could get past the disability, I might be happier rather than letting it define me.

It's just figuring out how.

Smash 365: Change

Some changes look negative on the surface but you will soon realize that space is being created in your life for something new to emerge. ~Eckhart Tolle

Change is inevitable in our lives. Think about recent changes in your life. How have they provided you with space for something new to emerge? Write for at least 10 to 15 minutes about change and see if new ideas emerge that were previously undiscovered… - Smash 365

A lot of changing coming up over the past few months and trying desperately to keep poking at them ever so slowly. Some of the changes is that I'm trying not to over pressure myself, but also pushing myself out of my comfort zone.

I've been taking swimming lessons which is something that's been in the back of my mind for awhile and I've just not had the motivation to do before.

LiveJournal's been down for the past few days, but I've been fairly active on one of my journals in a recovery community for people who like me struggle with emotion regulation. I like the fact that it's a community geared toward recovery, rather than commiseration.

My therapist is also trying to point me toward doing a Recovery Education Program at one of the local universities, though I'm not so sure about it. It could be really useful for me, though. I really want to talk to someone there about how the program works before I decide... On that front, I also have to make a lot of really tough phone calls really soon... It's one of the hard things about having an invisible disability.

I'm also trying to do these posts from Smash 365, even though they're somewhat hard topics for me to blog about.

And for August while I'm continuing with struggling with my Camp NaNoWriMo goal, I'm also going to be using this journal to do some self-awareness writing through SimplyBlissLife's blog.